Behind the Lyrics, Pt. 1: “Awake”

In October, I posted the lyrics to the songs featured on my “Awake” EP to build up interest in the music leading up to the release on October 28th. But I’ve decided to go a step further than that; I want to also try to shed some light on the meaning behind the words in these songs, or at least what I was thinking as I wrote them. That’s something I wish more of my favorite artists would do, so I thought I would do that for anyone interested in that type of thing. Anyway, here’s the first verse in “Awake”:

Trees form the canopy

Straight lines in front of me

Normally they stray my path

Dear God, I wish they hadn’t

I’ll preface this paragraph with the revelation that the whole song is basically about my songwriting process in a metaphorical way. Trees have always been a source of inspiration for me. I am especially at peace on a cool, breezy day watching the trees sway back and forth, serving as an indicator of an approaching storm.  The “Trees” I’m referring to in the first line embody my sense of creativity.

The “Straight lines” at the beginning of the second line are the path laid out before me by conventional music theory and previous musical instructors that I’ve had over the years, who often teach similar practices in terms of chord progressions that sound good to the common ear and other things of that nature. These common practices tend to lead musicians to revert to them, because they are tried and true methods of producing major “hits” and chart-toppers, and thus, they “stray my path” from being unique. The final line vents my frustration with this dilemma.

I’ve walked a lonely road

How dare you say that I am no one

I beg to differ

If only I could resist her

I would be free…

I have no siblings, and I’m quite introverted. I think that’s why I’ve found comfort in writing songs by myself, and this is the “lonely road” referred to. The two lines that follow that are just me wanting to prove myself in the musical realm. And I feel most free when my mind is clear enough to focus solely on writing music.

I lie awake and find (x3)

Another one is missing

When I wrote this song several years ago, I had some issues with falling asleep most of the time. I would lie awake for hours at times, just thinking of certain melodies and playing them over and over in my head until they sounded right. The “missing” lyrics would eventually come to me, and then I could finally rest.

Music is a vital part of my life, both as a listener and a producer. I think this song represents my nature as a perfectionist and my drive to learn how to make my dreams happen one step at a time.

Here are the lyrics all together:

Verse:

Trees form the canopy

Straight lines in front of me

Normally they stray my path

Dear God, I wish they hadn’t

I’ve walked a lonely road

How dare you say that I am no one

I beg to differ

If only I could resist her

I would be free…

Chorus:

I lie awake and find (x3)

Another one is missing